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    • Because it’s all I know. I’ve been doing this for years. It’s been so long since the first time I started pricking my fingers when I was sad. I guess I just taught myself that this is how you deal with pain. Have a bad day? Cut. Boyfriend broken up with you? Slice. Parents yelling at you? Slash. For the longest time, I couldn’t cry. I couldn’t scream. I had completely trained myself to deal with my emotions by hurting myself. I never imagined I could do that. Hindsight is 20/20, as they say. I look back and I realize how dependent I got on doing this. I’ve gotten to the point where i am able to express my pain by crying, but it just doesn’t really do it for me. Nothing feels as good as cutting. Nothing gives me that rush or that release. I’ve tried all those typical avoidance methods like the rubber band or red markers or ice, but none of them were even close. So I guess I do it, because it’s the only thing that ever works for me.

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    It took me a year of therapy to answer this question somewhat effectively. I started injuring when I was 14 or 15. That’s all I know because I don’t remember it at all. Some people say that’s a blessing, but it means I can’t learn from my past. I think when it first started it was because I was depressed and no one knew and I wanted someone to know that I wasn’t okay. It was a cry for help. Later it became a stronger coping mechanism. The one early memory I have of self injury tells me that it’s because I have a compulsive need to save the people I love. When I can’t save them I think they’ll leave me and I begin to feel worthless and like I don’t deserve to live. I went into an unstable recovery for 5 years (? once again not sure … no memories from teenage years) by pretending that it had never happened. Once I acknowledged it I became an injurer again. 23 years old now and in recovery for 1 year. <3

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