[Kara, female, age 15, began to SI at age 11, 9th grade student]
I cut, burn, bruise, overdose, etc. because I can’t deal with this never-ending pain. It hurts too much. I started when I was 11 and now it controls me, I’m no longer controlling it. I’m now 15. 4 years i’ve been hurting myself. My family is so broken. I don’t have a dad. I have a mom. But she abuses me(physically and verbally) and she does drugs, she doesn’t care about me. I’m constsntly made fun of at school. I’m the “emo bitch” who no one talks nicely to but they can can always find something mean to say to me. My boyfriend abuses me(physically and verbally). No one understands me. I’m also bulimic and have several mental illnesses. I’ve attempted suicide too many times to count or even remember. I have two friends. Don’t know if i can call them friends though because the talk about me and like me only half the time. I can not take this anymore. I need something to make the pain go away. I thought i could kill the pain but i just brought so much more. SOOOO much more. I’m trapped inside this broken life. I have a broken heart. I’m so scared of life. I tell no one of my secret. When my mom found out i cut myself. She tried to beat the problem out of me and said i was “a stupid ugly bitch who only cuts for attention”. I could NEVER do this for attention. Please anybody can anyone help me. I feel so alone.
Person [Kara, female, age 15, began to SI at age 11, 9th grade student]