I self injure to feel alive and in control. I want to be the one controlling my pain. I want to see on my skin what I feel inside to remind myself to never make the same mistake as to what led me to that pain. I think “yea, you can hurt me, but not like this”. I hide my S.I but its a way to ‘show’ those who hurt me what damage they caused.
Person F, 31, si since 15