things falling apart
my self-injuring came late in life. i didn’t start til i was an adult. i currently live at home with my parents to help take care of them. they are both in their late 40’s, but have major health problems. since i was born, my mom has been in and out of hospitals with various problems, so they became part of my life. i had to grow up really quick because of it. i feel as though part of my childhood was took away. i dont hate her for it at all. my parents have had money problems and lately its gotten worse. to the point of us having to move into a less nicer house and other people helping us with food. because my dad has a major disease in his back, he cant work for very much longer. he is our only source of income. i self-injure because i bottle all my emotions inside and never let them out. to me this is a way to do that without letting others know my feelings.the rush of seeing the blood or the cut start to show up makes me feel happy. kinda like a rush. i always feel bad about it later when i am changing or showering. i feel like the scars are my battle wounds. cause i’m always battling with my own emotions and pain.
Person female, age 21, began to SI at age 19, stay at home daugther