why i cut
I cut because I psychically want to see my pain. All of these painful thoughts run through my head, and i never get to see them. I cut because i want to look as broken as i feel. I want to look as scary as my thoughts are. I want to see blood when I cut. I want it to look bad when I cut.
I blame myself for a lot of things, for the reasons that i am alone. I become so mad at myself. I want to psychically let out my aggression towards myself. i DO NOT cut for attention. and i DO NOT cut because I think its cool. I Wish i didnt have to do it. I wish there was something i could find that came close to it. But i have yet to find it. I’m not sure im looking though. Im scared of not cutting.
Person female, age 20, began to SI at 15, retail managment