Why I Do It...
I think I self injure because it gives me this sense of control over my pain and it reminds me that I’m still alive. I constantly find myself numb and emotionless. It scares the living hell out of me. But when I cut, I feel this adrenaline rush. It feels so amazing to know that I can control how deep, or how much pain to inflict. It’s very hard for me to open up to people so I bottle everything in, and when I cut its like this huge release. No one understands me, and cutting makes my problems disappear. Even if its just for a quick moment, I find it completely worth it. I didn’t realize how addicting it would be and I wish I never started but it’s too late to take back now so I kinda just accept it. It’s a part of who I am. My scars are always going to be with me.
Person Female, 17, Began to SI at age 15, Senior in High School