Why I do it
For me self injury was away to let me know I was still alive, as I was emotionally numb to everthing. The pain from the cuts and burns let me know that I could still feel something. It was also away to release all the pent up emotional pain I held inside me. After being bullied at 2 schools I couldn’t take it any more, and with no one to turn to, I turned all my anger & the hurt on myself, and the way that I felt better was by hurting myself, even though it was painful and I was permenantly scarring myself. The cuts and the burns ended up being a form of punishment as I felt that I deserved to be bullied, and that it was all my fault so I would hurt myself. In the end self-harm was a coping method, when I had a bad day, or someone said something to me or I had a bad test result, I would hurt myself to cope with the feelings these incidents brought on.
Person female, 18, began SI at 11, high school student