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    Why I Self Harm


    • At first, I self-harmed because I felt like I had nothing else that I could turn to. I remember dismantling a cheap razor and then cutting my wrist, but the most prominent memory about it was that it didn't hurt all that much. I guess the pain was something that I was always scared of and it's what kept me away from hurting myself. When I realized that there wasn't much pain in a thin razor, I couldn't stop. I was diagnosed with depression and basically told to "not do it." 

      I was in so much mental anguish. I thought that if I could make the mental pain physical, it would turn into a scar which would eventually fade and thus, so would my mental pain. It definitely didn't work. I became addicted and I ended up cutting myself almost daily. 

      I'm in college and when it became increasingly hard to concentrate in class, I hated myself for it. In fact, I can't really remember a time that I didn't hate myself. I've tried to not cut for a while, but I feel myself slipping. I wish I had never done it to begin with.

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    promiseswerebroken

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    I understand exactly what you mean... 

    I self-harmed because the physical pain makes the mental pain go away, but I always needed to repeat it, because otherwise the mental pain would come back. I've been clean for about two months now but I also feel myself slipping up. 

    I'm trying to stay positive and stay away from this destructive habit, even though it's really hard. 

    Life is just really hard. I truly hope the both of us will get there eventually. 

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